Is it part of human nature to lose what one loves or have I just been singled out for this particular curse?
I have observed many happy couples who have overcome life’s vicissitudes and remained pair bonded, or what passes for marital bliss well into their golden years; therefore, I know that it is possible. Unfortunately, for me, if I love it_ I lose it.
“There is some kind of a sweet innocence in being human- in not having to be just happy or just sad- in the nature of being able to be both broken and whole, at the same time.” ~ C. JoyBell C.
I loved deeply when I was a younger man a most beautiful young woman and my first real love. I lost her to the malfunctioning of my damaged brain; it would not be the last time that this cruel defect of birth would interfere with my rosy envisioned destiny.
Maybe my destiny is to walk the final miles alone, although, that hardly seems fair. Apparently, there is no justice in this world. It is difficult to process the emotions of loss, strange because you would think that I would be really, really good at it by now but no; it never gets easy. The scars are always fresh, just waiting to be reopened anew.