I keep walking from room to room through my three room condo, looking for my inner brick to throw, or my inner Dromio to pose a question to; I do things that are necessary but without any clear rhyme or reason.
I was born in the spring and beloved of my mother.
She had great faith in me, her only child.
She held immense expectations for me, my life, and certain it would be better than hers,
My mother would proudly proclaim, “My Son!”
I was told that I held great potential,
My educators were far less enthusiastic; I was born with a congenital flaw you see.
I began to doubt my dame’s belief in me, along with my own,
nevertheless, life went on.
Achievement was a myth, a cruel lie, never coming to fruition.
Mediocrity was my greatest accomplishment; I reveled in it.
‘Not to be’ became my sad lament.
Then I found myself with a woman and called it_ LOVE.
Today my greatest triumphs are my two daughters.
I am careful not to set the bar too high for them, let it be if it is to be.
The drop is deep and painful when you reach the bottom.
“My daughters!” They are the best of me.
Featured image from – Kim Kyung-Hoon/Reuters
Immigration is the issue that both Political Parties had hoped to ignore until it went away, well that did not work out, did it. Enter malignant narcissist Donald J Trump and his Right-wing ideologue and anti-immigrant mouthpiece Stephen Miller. Their response to Refugees seeking asylum along the US southern border, “Go away, we do not want you!”
Lovely, this is as inhumane as it gets.
Yes, I am a Socialist, pure and unadulterated; if I were elected to Congress, I would be in favor of every Progressive initiative so far suggested.
- Single Payer Health Care because a healthy Nation is a productive one. Check
- Free College Tuition because our young people are our best resource and profiting off their education is criminal and uncivilized. Check
- Basic Guaranteed Income because people who are secure are more productive. Check
- A Green New Deal because destroying our ecosystem is not a viable long or short-term option; it is just stupid. Check
Fortunately, or not, I am not a member of Congress; I am just a little damaged guy with one vote, wondering for whom I should cast that one vote.
Murrumph Aeyerrrm, whom to pick? A neo-liberal Democrat retread or one of the shiny new comers? I never heard of Obama, until Oprah introduced him, and he worked out OK!
The question and the major detraction, of course, is “How to pay for it all?” Therefore, should I pick a moral pragmatist instead of a Progressive visionary to battle the Trump? Because that is the overriding criteria, whom can make DJT a one term President?
However, let me ask you this, where would we be if President Roosevelt acted pragmatically during the Great Depression of the 1930’s instead of ethically and with compassion?
The Democrats under FDR spent liberally to pull us back from the brink and still had enough money to successfully fight and win the Second World War. So excuse me if I am mildly dubious of fiscal conservatives crying poor mouth, especially when Republicans, those champions of Deficit Reduction, recently gave $1.3 – $1.9 Trillion in Tax cuts to the wealthiest families and corporations in the US without much concern for incurring hyperinflation.
The US uses a Fiat Currency.
“Fiat money is a currency without intrinsic value that has been established as money, often by government regulation. Fiat money does not have use value, and has value only because a government maintains its value, or because parties engaging in exchange agree on its value.” < Goldberg, Dror (2005). “Famous Myths of “Fiat Money””. Journal of Money, Credit and Banking. 37 (5): 957–967. >
Whom to vote for in 2020, I still do not know.
A Social Democrat with loads of progressive ideas
A retread middle of the road Democrat? Perhaps one of the newbies possessed of abundant charisma and energy but short on experience?
I do not know; thankfully, I have until Tuesday, March 3, 2020 to decide.
Is it part of human nature to lose what one loves or have I just been singled out for this particular curse?
I have observed many happy couples who have overcome life’s vicissitudes and remained pair bonded, or what passes for marital bliss well into their golden years; therefore, I know that it is possible. Unfortunately, for me, if I love it_ I lose it.
“There is some kind of a sweet innocence in being human- in not having to be just happy or just sad- in the nature of being able to be both broken and whole, at the same time.” ~ C. JoyBell C.
I loved deeply when I was a younger man a most beautiful young woman and my first real love. I lost her to the malfunctioning of my damaged brain; it would not be the last time that this cruel defect of birth would interfere with my rosy envisioned destiny.
Maybe my destiny is to walk the final miles alone, although, that hardly seems fair. Apparently, there is no justice in this world. It is difficult to process the emotions of loss, strange because you would think that I would be really, really good at it by now but no; it never gets easy. The scars are always fresh, just waiting to be reopened anew.
If you have not noticed, people are very complicated. Consistency is not humanity’s best-known trait; although, I have come to value it more as I grow older. Supposedly, in psychology, five factors determine different personality traits. The big five factors are:
- Openness: appreciation for a variety of experiences.
- Conscientiousness: planning ahead rather than being spontaneous.
- Extraversion: being sociable, energetic and talkative.
- Agreeableness: being kind, sympathetic and happy to help.
- Neuroticism: inclined to worry or be vulnerable or temperamental.
According to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, there are sixteen different personality types. It is more likely that an individual will tend toward several different ‘types’ rather than matching only one. Moreover, a person often changes types as they walk, or run, through life’s mysteries. In addition, there is luck, good or bad, yogurt happens.
If you are consistently fortunate and life has smiled on you then it is more likely that others will describe you as possessing positive personality traits, a bonhomie, if you will. e.g. Adventurous, Helpful, Affable, Humble, Capable, Imaginative, Charming, Impartial, Confident, Independent, Conscientious, Keen, Cultured, Meticulous, Dependable, Observant, Discreet, Optimistic, Dutiful, Persistent, Encouraging, Precise, Exuberant, Reliable, Fair, Trusting, Fearless, Valiant, Gregarious.
Alternatively, if your life circumstances have been less kind and you have experienced events that are more negative then you might find your descriptors fall into this other list. Arrogant, Quarrelsome, Boorish, Rude, Bossy, Sarcastic, Conceited, Self-centered, Cowardly, Slovenly, Dishonest, Sneaky, Finicky, Stingy, Impulsive, Sullen, Lazy, Surly, Malicious, Thoughtless, Obnoxious, Unfriendly, Picky, Unruly, Pompous, or Vulgar.
Personally, I believe we could all be described using adjectives from both sets of traits depending upon your life circumstances at the time. If the fluidity of our lives dictates our personality traits then for the Ayn Randian advocates, how much control do we exert over which group of adjectives that others will use to describe us?
What part does luck play in defining our personalities?
I dreamt of meeting my earliest true “girl friend” last night. Never have I experienced such feelings of love for a woman, before or since. We ran into each other in an Airport Terminal. She appeared just as lovely as I remember her, although significantly taller; I guess in my dream reality, she grew after we parted. Growth is a part of life and one would hope that we grow all throughout our lives, in one way or another. I remember thinking upon waking, “what might have been?” My illness began manifesting itself just prior to our breakup, although no one knew it at the time. What would my life story, and subsequently, my personality descriptors have been, had I not had the misfortune of being born with a colloid cyst blocking the Third ventricle in my brain?
My first wife was fond of saying that there is no such thing as luck. She was a fan of self-determination; “you are what you make of yourself.” She is someone whose descriptors would come from the former group of adjectives. I wonder if her belief has changed over the years; however, I am disinclined to seek her out and ask.